This is so awesome! Too excited to do more!
I’d give anything to be someone else. Anywhere else.
Tonight I went and had some vegan chili dogs to cheer myself up. I ate them while choking back tears in a restaurant full of happy people. People in love. She called me while I was writing this post…she wants me to help her with homework…I said ok. I’m so fucking weak I make myself sick. I want to drive so far away…across states….time zones…far away from this life. I will be alone forever. She doesn’t care about me. I told her everything…she just uses me. I let her.
I let you in. You don’t feel the same. Instead you’re in love with your boss. The same guy that got you drunk and high and tried to fuck you. I was always there to help you when you didn’t have anyone. He’ll never care about you like I do.
Should’ve never watched this video…now I’m crying
I wish i could be honest.
I wish things didn’t have to be like this.
I wish i was someone else.
I wish you were here.
I wish someone loved me.
I wish i wasn’t crying at work right now.
I wish my life want shit.
I wish i was attractive.
I wish i didn’t have to feel like this.
I was home right now.
I wish i could remember what home felt like.
I wish you could see who i really am.
I wish i deserved better.
I wish i was meant for more.
I wish i had friends.
I wish i wasn’t lonely.
I wish i had money.
I wish i wasn’t 28.
I wish I had someone to love
I wish someone cared
I am deeply, deeply unhappy….what is this thing I am trapped in? its like being born into the deep end of a swimming pool with no swimming lessons and no way out…then i remember that maybe i don’t deserve a way out…
why couldn’t i be born someone else?
Am I so unworthy and undeserving of love?